Loss

If I have to change who I am
Am I still the person you love?
That loves you in return?
What rivers, valleys, mountains
Even worlds and galaxies,
I wouldn't cross to be with you.
__________
But to change my soul,
My heart,
My mind?
These are the things that make me. These make me WHO I am
_________
But you are a part of me too.
If you ask me to choose,
No matter what I do,
I lose.
________
Heartbroken already,
I cry,
As I contemplate,
My loss.

Loss

I used to think like you
To be young and naive
When the world was my oyster
And all my wishes fulfilled
But now I bare the scars
Of life obtained
The days unlived
And the time spent in sorrow
I know you will join me one day
And for that loss
For those sorrows yet to come
I pity you

New Endings

New Endings

The lover’s quarrel is amended

Think not that this tale is ended

For unless a parting follows

Love in heartache and bitterness wallows

If only goodness lit the day

We know not night to keep it at bay

And without the loss and touch of pain

We wouldn’t know what we have gained

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Missing

Missing

Phantom fingers in my hair

Gently sliding down

A slight touch

Deftly caressing

Longing for what cannot be had

The barriers are too high

The cost, too much

Could the world suffer your loss?

Mine would be no heartbreak

Not even a blip on the radar

Separation is good for the soul

Or at least

That is what everyone

Seems convinced I need to hear

What is your opinion, love?

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The Universal Truths

The universal truths

The points on which we all agree

Is there a higher power,

Something bigger than us all?

We have all felt the sting of loss

The flutter of the heart

That comes with love

The sting and pang

The bittersweet taste of regret

The bubbling up wellspring of joy

The burst of laughter

At inappropriate times

Some things belong to the world

We share them together

No matter who we are

We have the same

Essential Humanness

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Deadline

Deadline

Call me on the first of May

That celebrated day

When flowers bloom and birds sing

And lovers lead the way

I’ll be ready for you at that time

When all the right words seem to rhyme

So come to me on Beltane Day

As the world resounds with chimes

But if you come on Easter Eve

I won’t ask for you to leave

I won’t be ready for you at that time

But I still could bear for you to leave

If you don’t come for me by fall

I’ll assume you won’t come for me at all

And that would be the biggest blow of all

If you were never to come at all

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Cheating Today... Cleaning out my Facebook Notes...

Freedom
I can disagree with your ideas
Without disagreeing with you.
I can agrue about religion
Without questioning your faith.
I can live my life in liberty
Without violating your privacy.
I can offer you freedom
Without forcing it on you
I can live in peace with you
Because of freedom, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.


Battle Worn
Missing faces in the crowd
Would you even see me?
I forgive you all your trespasses
If only to be free
The loss of you is without measure
A price too high to pay
Amazing that my heart beats soundly
Battle worn from the fray
They say that time can heal all wounds
But time is infinite
My heart, I fear won’t last as long
Missing it’s perfect fit

Golden Boy

Where have you gone my Golden Boy?
Have your blue eyes faded grey?
Your loving precence is missing
I need your light to guide my way
I call on all the angels
To find this missing trove
For he is surely a treasure
The best magic God has wove
If you're ready to come home now
My heart is open wide
For there's nothing we can't accomplish
Standing side by side



Blue and Grey
A symphony of blue and grey
A fairy that bleeds true red
The colors of a broken heart
The fairy tale that’s at its end
Rapunzel has cut her hair
Cinderella has moved out
Snow White is sleeping with the huntsmen
And Red takes a new route
We cling to childhood dreams
They keeps us from the dark
But Fairy Tales never last
They end in broken hearts


Mystic Bargain
Nights are spent long and sleepless
I wake screaming from a silent nightmare
I reach for your hand to hold close
My grasp finds only empty air

Were you really ever here?
Did my imagination create you from dreams?
My life is fading into stardust
Nothing appears to be what it seems

The green is so vibrant
That words almost fail me
The potential to grow
Bursts forth almost daily

Tiny white flowers nurture and devolve
Blossoming fruit, first bitter then tart
By fortifying the body
We then nourish the heart

Heart being crushed slowly
The pain mounts as blood begins to pool
Was I ever your love
I feel a total and complete fool

My breathing starts to fade
I no longer seem to care
Waiting between heartbeats
The light leave my stare

The words won’t come as quickly
With my heart bleeding on the floor
I wish you could have told me
How I could give you any more

Tell me what I didn’t see
Or anything I could have done
What mistake I might have made
Did I walk where I should have run?

You taken away the sun
My soul starts to wilt in the shade
The landscape turns grey and bleak
Without you love my whole world fades

The mystic bargain has been made
You’ve found the love you claim to seek
I hope you’ve found your heart’s desire
Beware of the havoc that you’ve wreaked




Towers
We sat and watched
As towers fell
As rains raged
As waves surged
As earth shook
We waited for the world to crumble
We took no action, 

As if we could..
We were the generation lost
To cyberspace
To texting
To tweeting
To Facebook
We were unable to communicate 

Because we felt it all had been said.

Chiaroscuro
Hear the crust of the world cracking
Black clouds cover all the sky
An endless pattern now repeats
People see and sigh
We stop and echo what we see above
Pose in mutual osmosis
Arte and Science break peace of mind
Gifts that they bestow us


Snowfall
Soft and fluffy
Puppy tracks obscured
Dazzling whiteness
Blinding the mind
Drifting through fingers
Melting in a heartbeat
There and then gone
Temporary only


Starseeker
An empty dent in the pillow next to me
The way your hair curls behind your ears
How you fit just so into the curve of my back
Your slightest touch sends me reeling
When are you coming home?
I need my soulmate, my flying companion
Starseeker, return to me
We’ll seek the skies together

Night Love
Being haunted by a painful memory
Blinded by a past that too far away to see
As soon as night as fallen he comes to my side
The pull he has on me is as strong as any tide
Two hearts together baying at the moon
Concentric circles staying in perfect tune
The mists concealing the painful reality
During the daylight our love could never be

Freedom's Cost
Speak no more of fleshy grief

Sigh no more longing sighs
Honor me not with the gnashing of teeth
Sever not all earthly ties

Gather up the troop and trumpet
To protect the flower and bee
For lest we number our earth as home
We never count ourselves free

Freedom is the highest cost
It's price is without measure or number
The cost of living is harmony with our home
Or humanity will forever slumber

Some of these are a bit trite.  But I've grown as a writer... I think.  I hope.

Dagger's Edge

Dagger’s Edge

Sometimes my feet get bloody

My balance is not quite level

But the ground below is muddy

I’d end up completely disheveled

It’s harder then walking on eggshells

At least, on that you know the score

For eggshells crush rather easy

They are simply the spoils of war

But balancing on the dagger’s edge

Playing both sides at once

You never know which bet to hedge

Relying on luck and impudence

There’s always a side to favor

Someone who wants to win

Never taking time to savor

Only looking for the next sin

The only winners are failures

The only triumph is loss

Truth is no longer my savior

To bear this is my cross

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Poems: Black Hole Sad Smile

Black Hole

The greater object is thee

I collapse into myself

You draw nearer

You can not escape

Time and escape

Changes around us

There is nothing

No light escapes this place

Do we really exist

Is love an illusion

Harbouring each other

Like a port in a storm

Sooner or later

Gravity will stabilize

We will find ourselves

In a different Space

Will it be full

Of wonder and magic

Or will we witness

The first Big Bang

Sad Smile

Hiding in plain sight

Smile on my face

Glad they don’t know

What hides underneath

Sorrow and passion

Aren’t absent and wanting

Just come in such numbers

Too numerous to keep

Quicksilver changes

It exists in no form

But it DOES exist

Whether you want it or ‘no

Such are emotions

Both hidden and buried

Because you can’t see them

Doesn’t mean they don’t show

The signs are well hidden

The meaning are written

In language a few

Are privileged to speak

A twitch of the eyes

A cringe of the shoulder

Is volumes to those,

Honored and meek

The wisdom of ages

The knowledge of many

The love of a few

Who know what to do

So if you are reading

The poem and decode it

I think that this knowledge

Is speaking to you

Time Changes EVERYTHING, Laced with Fire,A Four Letter Word,The Curse The Definition of Love

Sweet 16

Virtue and Innocence

Astounds all but a few

Sweet sixteen and not yet kissed

To all experiences new

A Lover never known

To which most are amazed

A kiss sweeter then wine

Never used to fade

A child yet in knowledge

A woman in body true

Yet information is known

Having experienced love so true

Feelings of surrender

Growing with each passing year

Holding on but wanting not

Loss with pain and fear

One day a prince will come

To take all away

Mercy in his heart

And forever there TO STAY

Time Changes EVERYTHING

Oh to be older!

To Know ALL

And want not!

When Lovers can do as they please

And Adults have Power over such as I!

Oh to be Young!

To not Know the secrets of this cruel world,

To still desire life, love and passion!

Innocence astounds me and Treachery surrounds me!

Laced with Fire

Each night I lie and dream of one

Who kissed and awakened my desire

And for this day and each none forth

My nights are laced with fire.

The steady blue and orange glow

Changes to bright red and green

The fire is steadily burning

Alive within the dream

I hope that I shall never wake

Without you by my side

Come sweet love and answer me

Shall I be your bride?

A Four Letter Word

I know a four letter word that means a lot.

It’s taught me everything I know.

Its meaning can’t fill the largest pot.

It’s as if you reap as you sew.

It’s a part of you all your life.

But you hardly know it’s there.

Through all your sorrow and your strife

It teaches you to care.

It comes from the highest heaven

From far, far up above

If you haven’t guessed by now

That four letter word is love.

THE CURSE

Eternity stretches on

With no end in sight

Life without you

Is a terrible plight

I’d pay dearly

To have you die

More would I pay

If your savior was I

I’d live a life

Of sorrow and pain

If I could hold

You once again

But all hope is gone

I’ll never admit

I, not you, up and quit

And the CURSE

Lives on

The Definition of Love

Love is a complete lack of self

The ultimate sacrifice

In love there is no break up

No substitute would suffice

Love counts no hours

No days, No nights

Love is only all eternity

A million blessed sights.

A pain that will not ease,

Until a chapel beckons,

A proposal on the knees,

Yet still it does not lesson,

It never condescends.

An eternity is waiting

For love that never ends.

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