Loss

If I have to change who I am
Am I still the person you love?
That loves you in return?
What rivers, valleys, mountains
Even worlds and galaxies,
I wouldn't cross to be with you.
__________
But to change my soul,
My heart,
My mind?
These are the things that make me. These make me WHO I am
_________
But you are a part of me too.
If you ask me to choose,
No matter what I do,
I lose.
________
Heartbroken already,
I cry,
As I contemplate,
My loss.

Crux

Crux

Call out just once and I’ll be there

No matter how far away

Time will not alter or change me

My love is here to stay

Take time to make some revisions

I know it worries you so

But remember I will be here waiting

When you’ve reached your lowest low

The world does its best to break you

To put you down in your place

But I’ll be here to protect you

Wipe the shadows that darken your face

So call on me when the time comes

Lean on me, I’m steady as the Earth

But the hour is coming when questions will rise

Time to prove your mettle and worth

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Three Days

Three Days

Shaking hands

Shaking legs

Shaking hearts

Three days can change your world

Breaking minds

Breaking hearts

Breaking worlds

Three words can mean everything

Taking hearts

Taking lives

Taking time

Just. Three. Little. Days.

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Vows

Vows

All anyone can ask

Is to give you all can,

To try not lie,

And to love with all your heart and soul.

To vow to be faithful

Is a large part of what is wrong with this world

We expect too much

Then are upset when it falls apart

Just don’t flaunt them in front of me.

Don’t get trapped.

Be careful.

I don’t want a fixer up model.

Anyone who goes into a relationship

Intending to change someone

Ends up

With disappointments and heartaches

The only person you can count on changing

Is you.

So go into love with your eyes open,

And never end up

With your heart in pieces on the floor.

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Ultimatum

Ultimatum

Things written in stone

Stand down the ages

But I like erasers

What if you change your mind?

Vacillating is a daily occurrence

A bit of a smudge here and there

Makes us human

No one should be perfect

Flaws are something to love

No one wants someone

Who they have to worship

And stand in awe of

I want an equal

Even if that means

Always being alone

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Empty Promises, Broken Vow

Empty Promises, Broken Vow

You’ve barely kept your secrets now.

Words are tricky they tend to slip

The world in spinning beyond your grip

When the time is right, Life will change

You can’t stop it from feeling strange

Sonner or later your friends will know

You’ve done your best, but feelings show

One day soon you’ll break the wall

That barrier you’ve built so high,

Is yours to fall with just a sigh

Then run, speed as fast as you can

There is no doubt, you know the plan,

An escape there is, you know it’s true

Life is what you make of it

Make peace and quiet for a bit

Poems: Black Hole Sad Smile

Black Hole

The greater object is thee

I collapse into myself

You draw nearer

You can not escape

Time and escape

Changes around us

There is nothing

No light escapes this place

Do we really exist

Is love an illusion

Harbouring each other

Like a port in a storm

Sooner or later

Gravity will stabilize

We will find ourselves

In a different Space

Will it be full

Of wonder and magic

Or will we witness

The first Big Bang

Sad Smile

Hiding in plain sight

Smile on my face

Glad they don’t know

What hides underneath

Sorrow and passion

Aren’t absent and wanting

Just come in such numbers

Too numerous to keep

Quicksilver changes

It exists in no form

But it DOES exist

Whether you want it or ‘no

Such are emotions

Both hidden and buried

Because you can’t see them

Doesn’t mean they don’t show

The signs are well hidden

The meaning are written

In language a few

Are privileged to speak

A twitch of the eyes

A cringe of the shoulder

Is volumes to those,

Honored and meek

The wisdom of ages

The knowledge of many

The love of a few

Who know what to do

So if you are reading

The poem and decode it

I think that this knowledge

Is speaking to you

What is normal?

So I'm trying this new diet, this #paleo thing.  Now, I'm not supposed to call it a #diet.  It's a #lifestyle #change.  And it really is.  I mean so much of the stuff we eat is crap.  I was in the store buying meat and a package of #turkey #sausage had #potato in it.  I mean, REALLY?  I know I'm not going to catch everything and I'm not going to worry if little things slip through but I really will try to do this as hard as it is.  I have noticed a few changes already.  I am having less #digestive issues.  I do feel a little bit more energetic. Hard not to feel better then I WAS feeling, which was rotten.  But the main thing is my memory seems to be improving.  I was sitting in Church today and I had a flash from a long ago birthday party.  I was in eight grade.  I remembered buying a brand new pair of blue jeans for the party, size 14.  I was wearing about a size 38C.  I also remember playing hide and seek in the dark.  The girl whose #birthday we were #celebrating had just moved to a new house. She had previously lived in a twin house, very similar to mine.  We were not close friends but in a same class in a parochial school everyone was friendly.  Now she had a large house in a #private #community (not gated or anything but well to-do).  I had bought my jeans at #K-Mart.  I guess I had a solid upbringing because the one thing I don't remember was ever being jealous.  We all accept the #statusquo if that's all we know.  Once we open #Pandora's Box we have to keep it open and let out the #hope too.