Sometimes

Sometimes I forget I'm alone
Is your voice still in my ear?
Sometimes I forget I'm alone
Will I listen for my phone?
Wiping off rain that like tears
I tell myself I'm not afraid
Sometimes I try to forget how much I'm alone

Exeunt

Sitting under a small cloud
Waiting overhead
The stage direction threatens

Exeunt...

Classroom days are over
The sun is burning bright
Summer plans now beckon

Exeunt...

He's not quite the one you thought
She left in dark of night
They've stopped their daily texting

Exeunt...

You know that they've been sick
But you simply haven't called
Afraid of checking in

Exeunt...

Fear

Afraid is such a broad term
But currently how I feel
Afraid of what I'm feeling
Afraid it could be real
Terror down to my bones
Anticipation and dread
If this isn't terror or fear
I cringe at what's being said
This world is crashing down on me
Anxiety closing in
As the curtains fall dark and slack
I recounts all my sins
Fear is knowing you aren't best
Your best isn't good enough
No matter how you play the game
You play a bit too rough
No one will ever think on you
With stardust in their eyes
Or longing speak your name
With a heaving hearty sighs
The world is full of us
The normal everyday folk
The ones afraid of everything
Too scared to even joke
Our numbers they are legion
Out of cities we do rise
But no one ever hears us
For silent are our cries

Blank Canvas

I might be in over my head

This boulder is rolling down the cliffside

I only wanted to share my joy

But I might lose what I find most precious

The harsh light causes me to shut my eyes

But its warmth still causes me to smile

And reaching up, pull the shutters closed

I wonder if there is a way to have

Both the light and darkness

My indecision has cost me in the past

There are ghost that whisper my name

Hard drives can never be truly erased

Everyone has files that can’t be deleted

Sometimes it’s easier to just share space

If you don’t share all your secrets

What you don’t know can’t be held against you

I’m afraid I don’t know anything at all

I’m a student of the universe

Teach me, for I’m a blank canvas

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