DO YOU EVER????

Do you ever?...

Do you ever feel like taking everything you’ve ever written, drawn, typed, sewn, composed, sung, played, recorded, or just in general created chucking it in a huge bonfire and lighting the match?  I really feel like I am identifying with Salieri lately, except he was a PUBLISHED composer and had fans and was BRILLANT.  Me?  I’m just a mouthy, nobody with a blog, a twitter, and lots of opinions.  That’s why I try to create new forms of poetry, like my gif poem, or the internet concrete poem.  I figure if no one ELSE has done them I can’t be shown up right? 

Sooner or later though, someone will come around with the wits to improve my paltry ideas.  After all, there are more things in heaven and earth, right? They say there are only seven stories after all.  I wonder if they have adjusted that saying to have more gender inclusive romantic storylines.  I say romance is romance, no matter who is giving and who is receiving, or how many!  The drama of a story comes from the angst.  The tenor and tone of the story can change depending on the mores and morals of society but the basis of the story stays the same.  That is true whether you change the settings or the characters or the sex!  Romeo and Juliet could be Romeo and Caesar and it would be the same story, maybe even easier to understand! 

But I, personally, have been having writer’s block lately.  Call it the 3 M’s. Migraines, Megrimes, and Monthlies. LSIDC I do love how every time a woman is in a bad mood a man everyone blames it on her period.  I was writing that men do this but I realized women do it just as much.  We may do it in a sticky sweet, back biting, condescending way, but we do.  Men may not realize the amount of cat calling and sniping that goes on between women because a lot of it is subtext.  Thing are said that are call backs to past conversations, or said between clenched teeth, or with baited breath. Women are never going to get anything from men until we stop GIVING IT to each other!

Well, I started this post trying to clear my head so that my writer’s block.  I’m not sure if that worked.  I still feel like setting all my stuff on fire.  I don’t think I’ll do it.  It’d take too long to gather it together.  But if you see a blaze lighting up half of North America…

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A Long Hard Lonely Way

What have I to offer?

I have no skills to bring

Were I to beg or borrow love,

I could refuse it at no price!

My abilities suffer compared to others

I’m not able to sew or mend

My words are that of a school child

I’m not glib by any ken

My riding skills are paltry

My cooking skills are parse

I’m not good with children

My etiquette is farce

If my diction here is faulty

Forgive me if I stray

But my voice is somewhat Country

To the City, it will not stay

So when I leave your side

It’s not for lack of love

It’s simply fear for embarrassment

I’m not the best of company

Who would ever want me

When half the time I cannot speak

The rest remember my own name

Or trip over my own two feet

No one wants the sick girl

The books make it seem glamorous

But if it’s boring everyday crap

It’s just a lot of fuss

So every day I take my medicine

And every day is just the same

One day I’ll finally wake up

And there won’t be any more pain

So what is there to offer?

But a long hard lonely way

It’s mine alone to travel

I think I’ve surpassed my stay

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