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Flagging, flailing
Wasting, wailing
I falter where you fail
Pressing, pleading
Sorrowing, Sighing
You fall while I still try
Wary, Watchful
Cautious, Clever
The odds of that this will work is never
Coveting, Crying
Begging a Begining
Who would contest those odds?

Stories

I onced dreamed of great beauty
Like a lamp burning in the night
My flights turned to fancy
My wonders, endless delight

The world was edged in crimson,
A bastion, a bulwark, and safe
No troubles touched or teased me
No mettle tested my faith

Then came a change and so slowly
A crack in the concrete facade
Like riven rock fording the sea
Like a wave waiting on the esplanade

Retreating to my humble cottage
In my shock, I cast down my eyes
On my bedspread, I found sitting there
On the pillow was the final prize

Secrets

The secret voice
Whispering in my mind
Telling me softly
Joking, laughing
Never here, gone
Fleeting, away
No sight to betray
Kiss me invisibly
Touching not being
Once more into the fray
No one knows
Spying on life
Not of but above
You cannot be found

Musings

Where do people go
When they just disappear?
Their lives but a memory
A dream in the night
Do they become angels
Watching over us by day?
Or are they simply
A figment,
Vanished,
When no one left remembers?

Darkest Dreaming

In the darkest corner of my mind
That's the place they stay
The ones that won't go away
Where they don't have to hide

I watch the parched desert
Encroached by now barren sea
Scorched down to aridity
And wonder if I can flee

In this bleak and desolate place
Electricity fills the air
Outside pressures compose the haze
That bring the end to many a chase
Reality has begun to tear
Seen through the spine of the sun's buring glare

Senseless

I can smell you in my dreams
You walk in the moonlight wreathed in smoke
When the wind shifts, I can almost taste you
Your footsteps echo on the lonely road
If only I could walk that road with you...
Our steps matching rhythms making harmony
As I enfold myself in your scent
Sampling the salty sweetness of your kisses
While the fog envelops us both

Beaten

Staying without you makes my heart beat out of time yours

T ogether no more

Always was meant to be ours

Comforting you

Caring for you

Always and forever and again and again

Trying to reach the stars, my love

Often

Leaving

I've fought this,
Fought you
For so long

I'm not sure how to live
With out fighting
Will my heart feel
As hollow as my insides?

What will be my purpose?
Will I be any use to you?
Will my eyes turn as black
As my now barren soul?

As endless days turned into
Empty nights I tried to pretend
That promises and prophesies
Were only words

Words that could not maim
That would not damage my fragile heart
As time passed each word was like a knife.
Cold and sharp. Brutal.

As the inevitable draws closer, I see.
My path has been altered
I must walk this path of blades

Leaving behind the comfort.
Leaving behind the light.
Leaving behind you.

Counting

Three
The number of words that were needed
Simple words to say
The idea planted and seeded
The thought that you drove them away
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Two
The only people that matter
Together then, now apart
The whole world in tatters
Both carrying broken hearts
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One
Relationship has concluded
One former pairing is loss
But no one need be excluded
It's only opportunity lost
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Sometimes

Sometimes I forget I'm alone
Is your voice still in my ear?
Sometimes I forget I'm alone
Will I listen for my phone?
Wiping off rain that like tears
I tell myself I'm not afraid
Sometimes I try to forget how much I'm alone