Beaten

Staying without you makes my heart beat out of time yours

T ogether no more

Always was meant to be ours

Comforting you

Caring for you

Always and forever and again and again

Trying to reach the stars, my love

Often

Leaving

I've fought this,
Fought you
For so long

I'm not sure how to live
With out fighting
Will my heart feel
As hollow as my insides?

What will be my purpose?
Will I be any use to you?
Will my eyes turn as black
As my now barren soul?

As endless days turned into
Empty nights I tried to pretend
That promises and prophesies
Were only words

Words that could not maim
That would not damage my fragile heart
As time passed each word was like a knife.
Cold and sharp. Brutal.

As the inevitable draws closer, I see.
My path has been altered
I must walk this path of blades

Leaving behind the comfort.
Leaving behind the light.
Leaving behind you.

Counting

Three
The number of words that were needed
Simple words to say
The idea planted and seeded
The thought that you drove them away
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Two
The only people that matter
Together then, now apart
The whole world in tatters
Both carrying broken hearts
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One
Relationship has concluded
One former pairing is loss
But no one need be excluded
It's only opportunity lost
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Sometimes

Sometimes I forget I'm alone
Is your voice still in my ear?
Sometimes I forget I'm alone
Will I listen for my phone?
Wiping off rain that like tears
I tell myself I'm not afraid
Sometimes I try to forget how much I'm alone

Extra Mile

That feted face
That stunning smile
Hasn't been seen
In quite a while
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It might not be my place
Or seem like my style
Not even my mein
To accept this guile
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Bring back the grace
Leave off the bile
When joy is lean
Give the extra mile

Count Your Blessings

I always take the easier path
I think you know that by now
But once I set a deadline
I will hold strong to it
Or I will do my best to try
I've always been weak when it comes to you
Count your blessings when it comes to that
That you have that loophole
It will eventually close
Second chances that have turned into
Third or fourth or fifth ones
May soon disappear
Will you regret it
When they do?

Musical Cento

Good morning starshine
There's love in your skies
Reflecting the sunlight
In my lover's eyes
There's a river to cross
And a mountain to climb
Patience, Patience
It's gonna take some time
Trusting desire, starting to learn
Walking through fire without a burn
Clinging on a shoulder a leap begins
Stinging and older, asleep on pins
It's only just out of reach,
Down the block, on a beach,
Under a tree.
I got a feeling there's a miracle due,
Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could
So somewhere in my youth
Or childhood
I must have done something
Something good

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(Lines 1-4 Hair)(Lines 5-8 Dreamgirls)(Lines 9-12 Rent)(Lines 13-16 West Side Story)(Lines 17-22 Sound of Music)

Breathing

When your name falls trippingly from my tongue
And you enter my consciousness
We breathe together into the night
Bodies and hearts entwined
The world goes away
Nothing exists but us
The darkness is enveloping
We two
Breathing
Together

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Roses es amarillo
Las margaritas también son
Los puse alrededor de la villa.
Y los guardo en mi bolsillo.
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Roses are yellow
Daisies are too
I put them around the house
And I keep them in my pocket

Loss

If I have to change who I am
Am I still the person you love?
That loves you in return?
What rivers, valleys, mountains
Even worlds and galaxies,
I wouldn't cross to be with you.
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But to change my soul,
My heart,
My mind?
These are the things that make me. These make me WHO I am
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But you are a part of me too.
If you ask me to choose,
No matter what I do,
I lose.
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Heartbroken already,
I cry,
As I contemplate,
My loss.