Pondering

I turn on to a crossroad. Which path do I take?
Both look like each other. No difference do I see.
I could court adventure or take the Narrow Path.
The roads may lead to fire or a beautiful bright crystal lake.
What happens when a tree blocks the path in front of me suddenly I've noticed all around me is fake.
Life is merely an illusion. Pictures we conceive.
Life has shades of color. It's not just black and white.
When we can't see the details, we argue and fight.
If we choose the right road, it helps us to believe.
So take the small steps carefully, the big ones fast.  
Take a deep breath and remember, this too shall pass.

Ritual

I'd love us to be together
I hate it when we part
There's no storm we can't weather
Bound by soul and heart

Hearts and minds and voices
Combined in glorious song
All life is based on choices
And we pray we are not wrong

When we finally join in flesh
As mind is joined and heart
Our souls will full mesh
We never more will part

Ribbons

Ribbons on wrists
Stronger then wire
Feeding my ecstasy
Bringing me higher
More than gravity
Holding me down
Put in my place
With a smile or a frown
You hold the power
Over my soul
Fulfilling my body
Making me whole

Fear

Afraid is such a broad term
But currently how I feel
Afraid of what I'm feeling
Afraid it could be real
Terror down to my bones
Anticipation and dread
If this isn't terror or fear
I cringe at what's being said
This world is crashing down on me
Anxiety closing in
As the curtains fall dark and slack
I recounts all my sins
Fear is knowing you aren't best
Your best isn't good enough
No matter how you play the game
You play a bit too rough
No one will ever think on you
With stardust in their eyes
Or longing speak your name
With a heaving hearty sighs
The world is full of us
The normal everyday folk
The ones afraid of everything
Too scared to even joke
Our numbers they are legion
Out of cities we do rise
But no one ever hears us
For silent are our cries

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Wither you wander
I wander too
Following everywhere
Lost in you

The world fades
Sounds dim
Except for my heartbeat
A loving hymn

My Sweetest Apologies

I present to you
My sweetest apologies
How must I prove it
That this is no tease
Coming forth as you will
Hands and feet and eyes
Your puppet for a day
Beware how the time flies
Amends mending while we play
Working your way up my thighs
Trying to stay silent and still
While part of my Soul slowly dies
As you eat my heart bit by bit
I think I've achieved my prize

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I wish you were always by my side
There would be nothing left to hide
In your arms, I'd be content
With no more sins to repent

The view is grand from here
No longer blocked by tears
Picturesque and heaven sent
With no more sins to repent

I fold into your arms
Knowing I'm safe from harm
Is this what the Poets meant?
With no more sins to repent

I wish you were here by my side
With no more sins to repent

Haunting

In a wave of memory
A scent drifts past me
I knew you couldn't quit it
I knew you couldn't quit me
Haunting me in bursts
Shame I thought of it first
I wish I could quit you
I wish I could quit this
Painful and joyful the same
I'm dying to call your name
I fall over and over for you
I fall each minute for you
Souls forever bound
In your heart I'm found

Naive (Pantoum)

We share a heart so tender
Some do think us naive
We two have only surrendered
We allow ourselves to believe

Some just think us naive
They are unaware of the cost
While we allow ourselves to believe
The real world can be lost

They don't perceive the true cost
That we two have sundered
The real world we have lost
While we share our hearts so tender

Dankbar/ Grateful

Ich bin Dankbar...
Dass ich immer noch Luft zum Atmen habe.

Ich bin Dankbar...
Dass ich jetzt mehr über meine Familie weiß, dass ich jeden Tag mehr lerne und mich über die Feiertage mit mehr Familie verbinde.

Ich bin Dankbar...
Für die Freunde, die ich in der Vergangenheit hatte, für die Freunde, auf die ich in der Zukunft hoffe, aber besonders auf die, die ich jetzt habe. Du bist die Liebe für mich und ich liebe dich.

Ich bin Dankbar...
Ich bin reich genug, um viel zu essen, ein Dach über dem Kopf, eine Krankenversicherung zu haben und mich derjenigen bewusst zu sein, die es nicht sind. Ich versuche diesen anderen zu helfen, wenn ich kann.

Ich bin Dankbar...
dass ich zwar die Sprache lerne, aber nicht zu oft in Deutsch schreiben muss.

I am grateful...
That I still have air in which to breath.

I am grateful...
That I now know more about my family, that I learn more every day and connect with more family over the holidays.

I am grateful...
For the friends I had in the past, for the friends I hope for in the future, but especially those I have now. You are the dearest and I love you.

I am grateful...
I am rich enough to have plenty to eat, a roof over my head, health insurance, and to be aware of those who are not. I try to help other people if I can.

I am grateful...
that I although I am learning the language, I don't have to write in German too often.