Growing Up Isn't Easy

When I was a child
You hurled insults at me
Reviled me
You call me weak
Do you even remember my name?

When I was older
I knew why you you insulted me
The need to possess or control
Was an all-consuming hunger
You wanted my soul.
Now you don't even care for my attention

When you were in college
I was a distraction, a means to an end
The way to get what you needed
Do you even remember I exist?

Now I'm older
My scars no longer burn
The pain is still fresh though
It forms my whole being

For though I have been
Slander and abused and
Taken advantage of

I survived

I'm stronger

I will go on

Violent Kisses

Cover me with violent kisses
Rage against my body
Make me beg for you
Open and waiting
Hold me as I fall
Reaching out for what's within grasp
Lying in the dying light
Shelter me
As our souls merge

Bu/y Owner

Whole mostly complete person--

Not too short, just high enough to reach
I will wear sandals when not at the beach Including a heart that's mostly complete
The cracks give it charm, they make it look sweet

As for the brains, I have to be thinking
Of solid more ways to ever be linking
We're all connected, we should be aligned
One day I will find it- true peace of mind

Now to the almost, Which never will be-

I'll never act or model or professionally sing
Don't expect to hear wedding bells ring
Don't wait for my children, they never will be
I don't want your pity. Children are hard you see...

One day in the future, gone we'll all be
My personal Fortune is harder to see
Add in cancer, immune problems and more I'm amazed that I've lived to see 34

This isn't a message, it isn't a plea
It is who I am, a description of me
The outer surface is all that you see
When you reach the middle, my heart will be free

Waiting Room

I sit waiting
Time can drag you
Pull you along bloody
Into infinity
The clock beats in time to my heart
Can I make it March?
Moments can be counted
They are sitting in a tidy pile
Something is missing
Days are dealt in hands
Whose hands?
Dealers come and go
Luck of the draw turns a flush, a full house
My house is empty
Can I have a page, a book?
The writing is blank
All cards are wild
As I sit waiting

Another Giffy poem

Here

Intense Passion

The night is slowly growing dim
My eyes study you
I rest my head upon your shoulder
Lay still
Feel breath warm the back of your neck
We rise and fall together
In love
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Live with me and be my love
With hearts and hands entwined
As long as work is being done
I don't think friends would mind
The day is long and hard and bleak
It seems to never end
But when our eyes, loving meet
My broken heart will mend
Joined together in warm embrace
Two hearts will beat as one
Together there's nothing we cannot face
we will outlast the Sun

Chains

No memory of when this started
No thought of when it ends
I humbly beg your pardon
We were the best of friends

But now the sky's exploding
And stars, they fall to earth
I feel my world imploding
The pain of life, rebirth

When we stand together
We cannot be apart
These bonds will never sever
The chains upon our hearts

Shadows

We walk alone together
Shadows holding hands
Bands are breaking daily
No more base demands

I love you not in anger
I love you not in hate
Fate is a clever device
Making zeal abate

Tomorrow comes on sudden
The winds of time blow true
Through thick and thin together
I'm standing alone with you

Vested

Changing guard, changing times
Toys are put away
The hollow bells begin to chime
And numbly we obey

Place and time already set
Naught to do but wait
Hearts that fill with pain, regret
Fight the hand of fate

The time approaches quickly now
As turbulent feelings grow
Will this end in promised vow,
Or heartbreak pain and woe?

Supplication

If it were you...

Would you...
Still be waiting,
Still be hoping,
Still be longing?

Would...
Your brain think of me first,
Your body ache for me,
Your soul burn for me?

Could you...
Wait patiently,
Move on,
Find a new love,
Find a new life?

But what about the promise...
Not to betray or stray,
Not buy look or word,
Or thought or word,
Or by touch?

Would you...

For me?

The Dance

Eyes with penetrating gaze
Pierce the madness and confusion
Slowly meeting across the haze
In want of inevitable conclusion
Stranded there in captured fate
Lifeblood flows a new
Staying here is worth the wait
The need to see this through
Reaching through the Great Divide
The dance, a pax de deux
Coming forward side by side
My fate is tied to you

Love Formula

When time was old and we were young
The rosebuds blossomed blue
Throughout the land the Word was sung
Of Deeds both good and true

When time was Free and we were kept
The rosebuds blossomed black
The singing ceased, flowers wept
Our words for feelings, lacked

When time was young and we were old
The rosebuds blossomed grey
Time was stalled and dark and cold
The seconds passed away

When time was kept and we were free
The whole world blossomed new
We walked and laughed by sandy seas
The words we spoke were true

Pressed

I made it
I survived the day
On the morn
Who know or doth say?
The time passes by
None 'er asking why
And I've said all
I have to say

*title suggested by My father

He said/She said

Let them keep talking
The lights on when you're ready
They've done all the talking
So keep moving steady
The sweet sounds of reason
Will soon bright your way
He says/she says
Shall quick fly away
The time it will pass
As people will stay
Reason has shown
Will paves the way
And when it does come
The light will blinding
True love at its best
As hate is unwinding

Found this lying around

Mutual Destruction

The smell of you wreaths my every breath
As we lie embracing
Tomorrow is a heartbeat away
If it never came would you mind?
You hold my hand so tight
Yours engulfs mine
Your life is so grand
This is your sanctuary
Your refuge
Who would take that away?
When the sun rises you have to leave
I die a little each time
I die when you come
You die when I come
Mutual Destruction
A supernova in your eyes
Can we stay here?
I know better
But I can dream
Can’t I?

Lies

To think this on the lies we tell
To prove to the world all is well
I'm fine, It's mine,Your hair looks divine
You'd think it some bloody magical spell

One tries to be much more then cleaver
When putting words all together
We try to be good and do all we should
Sometimes there are storms we must weather

No lies, the Bible doth say
Keep the way of the Lord a'lway
Sometimes it is needed
Rules not to be heeded
The punishment later to pay

Change

I saw you today
Walking across the square
And when you looked at me
Your eyes weren't really there
I started to walk toward you
I started to go and stopped
You saw me and you turned around
My heart found fear and dropped
The weather had been bright
Sun shining, clear, serene
Out of nowhere clouds began to roll
Painting a dismal scene
Now I turn, I run from you
My panic, fear and pain
Have caught me deep with in my soul
As teardrops turn rain

mindless

I was going to write a poem today

But my brain did not want work that way

So I wrote these lines instead

To see where inspiration lead

And this is all I had to say

Poetry 3 Poems- Clocks, Zen, Scars

Clocks

Two souls wander broken

Slowly shredding to pieces

Life falls to the wayside

Pressure builds as time runs out

Clocks chiming

Tick Tock

Tick
Tock

Not Yet

A distant cry

Soft and innocent

Beckoning

A future possibility

Tick

Tock

More pressure mounts

Familial obligations

Where and When and Soon

Tick

Tock

Crash

A million Pieces on the Floor

ZEN
Moving Forward

Standing Still

The deception of gravity

Time forces motion

To keep on going

While the rest of us

Keep Standing

Scars

Connected by scars

Tissues can heal

Heart wounds and fissures

Aren’t quite so easy

Time ebbs and flows

Moving faster than expected

Circling life

Pain comes and goes

What we do

Makes us

Who we are